From: Paul C.
To: M.
Sent: Tuesday, May 08, 2007 7:56 PM
Subject: RE: Friendship, Rapport, and ...?

I realize that the Golden Find is far beyond words and an intellectual understanding of the mind. If someone asked me to explain the difference between the Process Observer and Individual Consciousness of Awareness, I couldn't lay it out in a concrete description. Thus, I know that the intellect isn't infallible, nor is it something that places a person on a superior rung. However, I cannot turn off the intellectual churning over the conundrum that I face.

At the last TAT meeting, I asked myself whether pride or fear is the block to an Experience. My first thought is that fear wasn't it. But then my next thought was that pride wasn't the block. Hell, now I don't know—maybe its fear of the blackness that I couldn't enter.

I believe that inspiration, for me, is important. When I am inspired by a book, or by listening to someone at a TAT meeting, I seem more focused on Awareness for days and even weeks afterwards.